The story of Esther has to be one of my favorite books of the Bible. My fingers have graced the pages of Esther numerous times and the Holy Spirit always gives me a fresh word every time. What a profound story about a orphan turned Queen who saved the nation of her people. The Lord can take an ordinary person and turn them into extraordinary. Only Jesus can do it! In this season the Holy Spirit has been speaking to me concerning Esther 2:12. It is there the passage gives us the break down of what was to take place before the maidens were to see King Xerxes.
The maidens went through a purification process that lasted twelve months. The first six months of the process involved the oil of myrrh. And the second half of the process involved sweet perfumes and with others things for the purifying of the women. I want to hone in on the oil of myrrh. Oil of myrrh is used for healing and clearing up the skin. So for six months the women bathed in the oil of myrrh. The oil of myrrh healed any preconditions the women had and cleared up their skin. Once they were finished with that process of extracting impurities then they were ready for the sweet perfumes to fill their bodies.
In this modern day time, the oil of myrrh represents the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is our guide. He is our Spirit of Truth. He leads us into all Truth. The Holy Spirit knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows the things that we cannot see concerning ourselves. There are some things that we have suppressed because they were traumatic. Because these things have been suppressed they are causing problems in our everyday lives. The Lord wants us to be made whole. In order for us to be made whole we have to go through the purification process.
Many of us find it very difficult to go through the purification process because it digs up painful memories of our past, childhood, relationships, and so forth. This is where trust comes in. We must allow GOD to have His way in us so that we can be set free. In order for us to trust GOD then we must come to a place of intimacy with Him. The more time we spend in secret with Him the more we will be able to allow Him to fix our lives. Yes, it is going to hurt and be very uncomfortable but this process is necessary in order for us to grow and receive all that GOD has for us.
The enemy wants to keep the children of GOD bound by our past. Many of us are surviving but we are not living. Jesus came so that we can live the ABUNDANT life, a life of love, peace, and joy in every area of our lives. I would have you know that many of God's children are living beneath the lives the Lord has ordained for them. I don't want to be in that category and I know you do not as well. We must come to a place of surrender and surrender our will so that God's will can take over. We can no longer allow the enemy to kill, steal, and destroy our lives. It is time to contend for your promises. You contend by allowing the Holy Spirit to have His way in you.
I have already begun a deep cleansing and it has caused me to lean into Jesus even more. The Lord has brought up pain from within me that I didn't even know was there and through my tears I released it to Jesus. I am not afraid anymore because I know fear is a tactic of the enemy to keep from foregoing the purification process. The Holy Spirit is a comforter so therefore in those uncomfortable moments the peace of GOD wraps around me like a shield. I press forward knowing that I am not only doing this for my future but for my sisters out there who are bound and need to be set free. It is purification time!
August 01, 2016
July 24, 2016
As I have been in deep fellowship with the Lord lately because it is the place where I find solace, the Lord dropped a scripture in my spirit. The Holy Spirit laid Romans 8:28 on my heart and it reads:
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
I had to read this scripture over and over to myself out loud. And then it dawned on me that I need to be patient because everything is working for my good. Even though I can't see it doesn't mean that God is not moving behind the scenes because HE is. Everything that we are currently going through and have previously experienced is WORKING together for our GOOD. The Lord is preparing us for greater. In order to be great we have to go through the process. The process is what makes us great. Many of us have went through some trials that nearly took us out but it didn't because we were born to overcome. Jesus has given us the grace we need to overcome the opposition we face. It is imperative that we keep our mind looking to the hills (Jesus) because that is where our strength lies. We will drown ourselves by focusing on our earthly circumstances that will not change unless we change. As I face trials I ask the Lord to allow me to see through His lenses and not my own. I understand that there is a lesson in that storm and I want to pass the test so I want have to go through the same storm again. In the midst of the sufferings and trials we must know that GOD has not left us nor forsaken us. Yes, those times are very scary at times and you feel so alone but in the midst rejoice because JESUS has overcome the world. We don't always understand the ways of the Lord but we must trust the fact that He know the plans He has for us and they are working for our good.
You Are So Loved,
July 14, 2016
The Lord has been speaking to me concerning those who have been wounded in the church. I believe in this hour THE FATHER (GOD) is sending out a mass altar call to those who have been hurt by the church. I along with some other ministers of GOD have met people outside the church who no longer attend church because of painful experiences inside the church. The Lord desires for His children to come back home. Jesus wants to bind up those wounds and set you free.
Well first let me start off by saying that if you have been wounded by the church then you are not alone. I experienced first hand what it feels like to be wounded by those you have been fellowshipping with for years. I attended a church that I simply loved and couldn't wait to get there on Sundays. I attended the church for about seven years faithfully. You could say I knew almost all the leaders and they knew of me. My children went to Sunday school with their children.
At the latter end of that seven years my marriage started to dissolve so my husband and I separated. During the separation, I could no longer afford the two story house on my own so we lost our home. My children and I were homeless. We literally fit all the belongings we could fit in a 2001 Buick Century along with ourselves. All I had in my bank account was 300 dollars to my name. We were able to pay for one week stay at a shabby motel by the GRACE of GOD and after that my account was zero dollars.
We attended church with all our things still inside of our car the next day. I was not in the best state of mind at that time. I knew that I had to ask my church family for help. I remember after church service I went up for prayer and told them my story. They basically told me that they will pray for me. A single woman with three kids who just lost everything and that is all you tell her. I was crushed. I was not new to the church and even if I had been that is no way to treat anyone.
The next day I decided to send out an email to one of the leaders at the church. He was head of the finances for those in need. I really just needed to talk to someone because I felt so lost. In the email, he stated he would call me. Honestly, I was looking forward to that call. The call never came. He eventually sent me an email and told me he was sorry and that he had two 25 dollars gift cards at the front waiting for me. I never felt so low in my life. No one ever checked on me to see how I was doing or if I was still alive.
What hurt me the most at the time is that they not only did this to me but to my three beautiful children. I wanted to leave the church but the Lord did not release me until a couple of months later. I remember thinking that the mission of the church was to feed the hungry and clothe the poor. Jesus said what you do for the least of these you do for Him. Then I understood that what they did to me they also did it to Jesus. I never bashed the church or spoke negatively of my former church home. I barely told anyone what happened. I had never felt so alone.
If you cant depend on your church family to help you in your time of need then who can you depend on is what I thought to myself. I immediately knew that I had to forgive them or else the Lord would not forgive me. Jesus knew what they had done but He was teaching me about GRACE at that moment as well. The same GRACE that He has extended to me over and over again should be extended to those who wounded me. Jesus also suffered at the hands of the church as well. He knew exactly what I was going through.
During that time the Lord showed me that one day I would have a ministry and that I would have compassion for the homeless or those in need because of my experience. The Lord takes everything you have been through and works it all out for your good. I understand now that I put my trust in NO MAN. My trust is in JESUS CHRIST because HE will NEVER fail me. Sometimes we as CHRISTIANS do not do a good job of being an AMBASSADOR for CHRIST. We misrepresent HIM and it causes others to leave the church and some leave the faith all together.
There is hope! Jesus is our hope. The Lord is sending out a call to all those who have been wounded and rejected by the church. Now is the time to release all that bitterness, anger, resentment and unforgiveness to those who hurt you in the church. Give it all to JESUS because HE cares for you. You might be saying right now, "Nicky, I cant forgive them." Or you might be saying "You do not know what they did to me." You are right. I do not know but Jesus knows exactly what you went through. Do you know what Jesus went through so that you could be saved from Sheol??? My dear sisters and brothers you MUST forgive. There is no other way around it.
Forgiveness is for you and you are holding yourself prisoner by not forgiving them. You are giving them power to control your life. Every time you think of them your stomach churns and your face frowns up. That is the power they have over your life. Give them and the situation over to the Lord. You will never be able to walk in the fullness of your destiny if you do not forgive. Do not allow them that wounded you to hold you back any longer. You cant forgive in your own strength but you can with the Holy Spirit. Cry out to the Lord. Let it go and allow Jesus to heal your wounds.
One thing I know for sure is there is no perfect church except the one Jesus is coming back for. I pray that you have forgiven those who have hurt you and that you will be led by the Holy Spirit to a church where you can GROW in the LOVE of GOD. We need you my dear brothers and sisters. Don't allow what they did to represent who the TRUE VINE is in your life. He is your life source. God is a GOOD GOOD Father! He loves you with an everlasting LOVE. He will never leave you nor forsake you even when you walk away. That is true love. You were created for more. If you need prayer please feel free to hit that PRAYER REQUEST button at the top. I want to pray for you so that you can fulfill ALL that GOD has placed upon your life. It is restoration time!
July 06, 2016
I just wanted to share with you all that I have started a new podcast: Nicky Cash. Click on my name and it should take you to my podcast that is titled "What Are You Waiting On." The Lord had layed it on my heart earlier this year to begin a podcast because He has made my voice an instrument for His GLORY. This is definitely something new to me but I must say that I absolutely love speaking what the Holy Spirit gives me so that others can be blessed. I am in the beginning stages so I am learning quite a bit about broadcasting and using the different equipment. Please bare with me as there might be a flew glitches here and there but do not let that stop you from hearing what the Lord is speaking to you in this hour. There is not a schedule as of yet because I am led by the Holy Spirit. I move when He says move because then I know that flesh is not in the way. My prayer is that this podcast brings GOD ALL THE GLORY by uplifting JESUS and that people lives are transformed from the inside out. I hope that people are inspired to live and dream again.
Love & Light,
July 01, 2016
You will forever be a month that I will remember for the rest of my life. I am forever changed by your embrace. You embraced me with unveiling Gods plans for my future. I am overwhelmed by God's grace and love. I never knew love like this until this month happened to me. Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior has taken over my life. I have surrendered my all to Him. I am no longer afraid. His love has removed my fears. I know that every trial I endured was to mold me into His image. The opposition pushed me into the arms of my Father, Abba. His spirit comforted me every time my feeble body could take no more.
The depression has lifted off of my life. Glory to His Holy name!!!!
I have on new garments, garments of PRAISE. My mourning has turned into dancing. I cant stop dancing and singing. All I want to do is worship at His feet. When I rise in the morning all I want is JESUS. Everywhere the Lord leads me throughout the day, I am sharing Jesus. I want the world to know that He is the ONLY way. I want the world to know that I serve a GOOD GOOD FATHER. His goodness is sweeter than the sweetest taste. His goodness is overwhelming. His goodness is His love expressed to His children. He is ALWAYS good. I am so excited for this NEW SEASON of my life and it all started in June. I am sad to see you go but thank you June for being so kind to me.
June 22, 2016
But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. Luke 15:20
You have been gone far too long. One day without you in the Kingdom of GOD feels like an eternity without you. The Father misses you deeply and awaits for your return. You turned your back on Him but He never turned His back on you. There is nothing that can compare to His love for you and His plans for your life. Success without Him is no success at all. His plans are far better and greater than you ever could imagine. He designed you so He knows what is best for His child. You walked away because there were some things you experienced and seen that caused you to doubt God and His existence. The enemy planted lie after lie and you could not sift your way through those lies. You started to drift further and further away and soon you were not anchored anymore. You thought that the grass would be greener on the other side but soon realized that you were more alone than you ever had been in your entire life. You thought you had it all but you have nothing when you don't have Christ. There are so many sleepless nights you experience and you take medication to help you make it through the night. Everyone thinks you may have it all together but they don't know that you wake up with a globe size void in your heart. Nothing can feel this void except Jesus! He is the only way, TRUTH and LIFE. He is awaiting your return. We (brothers & sisters) are awaiting your return. You don't have to live another day in darkness but the choice is yours. There is light and life on the other side. All you have to do is repent. Repent is not a bad word, matter of fact it is a gift to us through Jesus. All it means is that you are saying I choose to turn away from that thing that separates me from God. The Father is waiting to forgive you and accept you in His loving arms. There is no better time than now.
June 19, 2016
A Father To The Fatherless
I never have to feel rejected or abandoned again.
I never have to feel lost and without a place in this world.
I never have to feel like I am the only girl without a dad.
I never have to feel that I am not loved again.
You came into my life.
You took my pain away.
You healed my hurts.
You gave me a new heart.
You gave me LIFE.
LIFE in you.
I am treasured.
I am LOVED.
I am FREE INDEED.
You are MY FATHER.
The one that holds my LIFE in your hands.
The aroma of your LOVE fills my very being.
I am overflowing.
Overflowing with gratitude.
Because you saved me.
Saved me from a cruel dark world.
You brought me out of the dark into your MARVELOUS light.
I am YOURS and YOU are mine.
Thank you FATHER or better yet, ABBA!
For loving me before the foundations of the world.
I was loved before I was even knitted in my mothers womb.
Love has never left me and never will.
Thank You JESUS.
You gave me the gift of repentance
And a chance to reconcile with my FATHER.
You are our GREATEST GIFT.
While everyone is spending time with their dads on this day,
I just wanted to Honor my dad, MY FATHER,
Happy Father's Day!