During my counseling session, the therapist asked me about my dating life. I looked at her like she stole something. I thought to myself who in they right mind would date a woman with all this I got going on. Being in a relationship is the furthest thing from my mind. It has only been a year and a couple of months since my divorce. I definitely need time to heal and process where my life is going right now.
To be honest, I had already decided in my mind that I was NEVER going to get married again. So that meant that I was not going to be getting into ANY relationships. Then GOD appeared on the scene one night, during the time I was homeless in my motel room. His presence was so THICK that you could not deny it was Him. I was literally OVERWHELMED with so much peace, love and joy! I was on the phone with a friend and she knew that God was there.
Then HE spoke to my heart.
He told me that I WILL GET MARRIED AGAIN.
I almost passed out at this moment. I am thinking to myself, "Am I hearing right?" There was no denying that it was God because the entire room was filled with the very essence of who He is. I had never in my life experienced such an oasis of love. My friend on the phone started to pray and as she is praying she starts to speak what GOD is telling me. By this time, I want to run through the wall because I could barely take what was happening in that moment. I was pacing the room and my kids were staring at me like I have lost it.
The Lord did not stop there. He began to give me a download of the man I would be marrying in the future. This man seemed too GOOD to be true. He was the man I had always prayed for and more. He was absolutely beautiful. I saw his heart and it was so pure. I saw him in a vision in the praying position and the Lord revealed to me that he prays often for his future wife (me). WHAT?!?! Me?! My mind was trying to catch up with all that was being said.
My friend was still on the phone and praying in her heavenly language. We both were in worship mode. The KING of KINGS was in my room that night and letting his daughter know that the PROMISE is still in EFFECT. I thought because of my wrong decision to marry a man that God did not choose for me caused me to forfeit the promise, but GOD said, "Not So." That ladies and gentleman is what I call GRACE. How can we not worship a GOD who lavishes His love and tender mercies upon us?? It is not over until GOD says it is over!
Because of who God is and what He has promised me, I have the courage to TRUST love one more time.