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My name is Nicky and I struggle with depression. I was battling in my spirit if I really wanted to post this but God wanted me to be more transparent on my blog so here I am laying it down for you. I have been battling with depression ever since I was in my teens. I would lay in my bed all day and my mother thought I was just being a normal teenager but she had no idea that I was battling with depression on the inside. I didn't even know at the time I was battling with depression until I got older and knew what depression was. To cope with the misery as a teen I played almost every sport that I could. I ran track, played basketball, and volleyball. I truly thank God for sports because it helped me get through some of the toughest years of my life.
Fast forward to my adulthood and I am currently struggling with this dreadful condition. I have never went to the doctor even when their where times that it got so bad I wanted to take my own life. I thought to myself that people already think I am weird what will they think of me now if they found out this Christian is struggling with depression or better yet struggling with suicidal thoughts. Honestly, it is nobody but Jesus that have allowed me to make it this far without any doctor intervention. Usually I would lay in the bed all day crying without eating or drinking but now that I am pursuing Jesus like never before I have prayer warriors that always call me at the right time to pray. Thank You Jesus!!!
My healing is a process and I know that God is doing a perfect work in me. I can honestly say that the suicidal thoughts have ceased and it has been over a year now! Hallelujah!!!! I have learned to PRAISE my way through those tough times and it really helps. I will turn on my praise and worship music to allow the presence of God to come in and shift the atmosphere. If you were a fly on the wall in my home you would hear me quoting scriptures out loud and this is very therapeutic for me. Writing this post is also therapeutic for me because I feel a release as I type! No more holding this in or being afraid of what others may think of me because there is no guilt, shame or condemnation in the Kingdom of God. I am free!!
What the devil meant for evil God is turning it around for my good. So if there are anymore women that are secretly suffering from depression you are NOT alone!!!! *Please note: I am not against going to the doctor and if you cant function daily please seek medical attention* Do what is BEST for you!!!
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ReplyDeleteI have been following your clog for a few months now. I praise you for admitting the difficulties that you have with depression. It's great that you have made it this far with out medical intervention, but have you ever thought that God helped man make medications to help people just like you. Medications do not have to be for life and there is no shame in it.
If that times come then I will embrace it. Thanks the follow! Blessings
DeleteAmen. I thank you for this post, because it speaks to my life and things I am going through now.
ReplyDeleteTo God Be the Glory!!! Just continue to seek GOD and speak His word over your life. You can make it and you will get through this!
DeleteThk God for this, bc I myself have dealt with it as well and if it was not for God I wld not be alive to tell of his goodness of setting me free!! Depression is real, whether u r a believer of the faith or not. But God is bigger and powerful and he can deliver us all!!
ReplyDeleteAmen Bless the Lord!!! Thanks for stopping by Nicole! God is GOOD ALL the time!
Deletepraise GOD! you are indeed very brave to share. i am not a doctor, but i think you should do some research to see what foods can help with depression. what we eat affects everything. find a doctor that can check you for any vitamin or hormonal balance deficiencies (iodine, especially) and you would be surprised how different you feel when you eat the foods that your body needs.
ReplyDeleteThat is confirmation bc about about two weeks ago It was on my heart to get some vitamins and I did. I will see how it goes from here! Thank you for stopping by. I stopped by your blog as well and I am PRAYING for you! Blessings
DeleteNicky! I'm so proud of you for opening up. If you go to my blog at http://vickimtaylor.blogspot.com , You'll find an old blog about how I opened up about having Bipolar Disorder and depression. It's something about My Tortured Path to becoming an author. I hope you find something that might help you in there. I've attempted suicide several times. Have been hospitalized for hearing voices, etc. But, it wasn't until this last suicide attempt in October that brought the light of God shining down upon me. I saw a sign at a church across the street advertising their neighborhood ladies class. God spoke to me and said I must go. So, go I did. And I am SO grateful I did. I have found my church home and the love and respect of so many people. I share my story with them. Anyone who can listen. It is God who brought me out of my misery and into ministry of spreading the word. Please know that I am praying for you to continue to do well. Please seek medical help when you can. It's so important to have the medical help to balance the chemical imbalance in your brain, while God works on your soul and heart. Contact me any time. Have a blessed day.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Ms. Vicki!!! I will head over to your blog. Thank you for reaching out to me and sharing your testimony!!!! God Bless You My Dear!!!!
DeleteThis week of my 40 day fast my church is focusing on "telling your testimony to at least 5 people." It is so wonderful that you're sharing your testimony and have found a way to help you manage some symptoms of your depression. As someone who has also had very dark moments and also considered "ending it all," let me encourage you to also try therapy in addition to what you've been doing. I am a medical social worker and cannot promote therapy enough. No stigma. No pressure. Just doing my part to testify. I will send up a prayer for you and pray that you consider therapy even though you're feeling - and might I add, looking - great! Your fellow SITS and BLM homegirl. Andrea @ be-quoted.com
ReplyDeletesorry I meant Andrea!
DeleteThank you A thendrea! Love your blog! I will look into it but when I started exercising, eating healthy, and taking vitamins that is when I noticed a huge difference. I noticed I was having less trouble coping!
ReplyDeleteVery cute Nicky..
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